Random conversations by the river

May 5, 2013 in Donkatsu, Oneshots by Donkatsu

“Have you ever fallen in love? Like really, head over heels in love with someone?”

Taeyeon turned her head, looking at the person beside her. “Um… yeah. I guess so.”

“With whom?” Tiffany also turned her head, meeting Taeyeon’s eyes. “Which one?”

“Never dated that person.”

“What? How could you fall in love with someone you didn’t date?”

Taeyeon shrugged then looked away, back at the dark water in front of them. “It’s possible. You can’t have everyone you want, you know. Well, I can’t. You seem to have no problem with it.”

“Hey! You’re implying that I date too much, aren’t you?”

Taeyeon didn’t answer.

“Who is it?”

“Not telling, Fany.”

“Now that’s rude. And I thought I was your best friend.”

“You are.”

“Then why won’t you tell me?”

“I can’t possibly tell you everything,” said Taeyeon. She turned her head again to find Tiffany still staring at her. “You don’t tell me everything either, right?”

“I do. You know I do.”

“No one tells anyone everything, Fany. We all have secrets we keep to ourselves.”

“Well, yeah… but I really tell you everything. And if there are things I didn’t tell you, it’s because you didn’t ask or because I just forgot to. Seriously. I trust you most. You should know that.”

Taeyeon smiled a little. “Thanks.”

“So who is it?” Tiffany scooted closer and leaned her head against Taeyeon’s shoulder.

“Not telling.”

“Oh come on!”

—-

“There you are.”

Taeyeon didn’t turn her head.

“Been looking all over for you, Taeng. Fany’s worried. You left the restaurant in such a hurry and wouldn’t pick up her calls,” said Sunny as she came to stand next to her friend. “You okay?”

“Yeah,” answered Taeyeon without looking at her friend.

“You have got to stop keeping so much to yourself. We all know, you know.”

“About what?”

“How you feel towards her.”

Taeyeon instantly turned her head. “There is nothing between me and her.”

“You love her.”

“Of course I do. She’s my best friend.”

“Not just as your best friend. Come on, Taeng. How stupid or blind do you think we are? You’ll do anything for Fany. Literally anything! You’ll even jump in the river if she ever tells you to.”

Taeyeon looked away without uttering another word.

“I’m sorry for tonight,” Sunny spoke again when Taeyeon didn’t seem to want to talk.

“She’s happy. Let her be happy.”

—-

Taeyeon stopped running when she saw the person standing alone near the water. She tried to catch her breath while approaching her calmly.

“I’m sorry,” said Taeyeon as she pulled the quiet Tiffany into a hug.

Tiffany didn’t answer. She just let Taeyeon hold her, leaning against the small yet warm body she secretly considered her rock.

“Why did you do it?” Taeyeon asked.

“He’s not it.”

“Huh? What do you mean?”

Tiffany nuzzled her face into Taeyeon’s neck but said nothing.

“Fany, why did you break off the engagement?” asked Taeyeon gently, running her hand over her best friend’s hair.

“It doesn’t feel right. He’s not it.”

“But why? He seems nice.”

“Just drop it, Taeyeon-ah. I don’t want to talk about it.”

“Okay. Whatever makes you happy then.”

—-

“What are you doing here?”

Tiffany turned her head. “What are you doing here?” She saw the bike. “You’re exercising?”

Sooyoung got off the bicycle and kicked the stand. “Yeah. Why are you here? Alone?” She then watched Tiffany take a deep breath and exhale, looking away. “You miss her, huh?” she asked as she let go of the bike.

Tiffany nodded. “We used to come here and just talk about everything and nothing. I feel like a part of me is missing.”

“Don’t worry. She’ll be back.”

“When?”

“Soon.”

“When?”

“When she’s found what she’s looking for, I guess,” said Sooyoung as she approached Tiffany and side hugged her.

“Did she tell you where she went?”

Sooyoung shook her head. “I had expected her to tell you.”

“She didn’t even say proper goodbye to me. I can’t believe she’s gone. Just like that.”

“Let her sort things out, Fany.”

There was a moment of silence until Tiffany spoke again.

“It’s my fault, isn’t it? I’ve hurt her for such a long time. Too long.”

“No, you haven’t. What are you talking about?” Sooyoung patted her friend’s back soothingly. “You didn’t know. It wasn’t your fault.”

“I should’ve known. She’s my best friend.”

“She didn’t tell you.”

“It doesn’t matter. I should’ve known. I should’ve seen it. I-I…” Tiffany stopped. “I drove her away. I hurt her.”

—-

Sunny stopped laughing when she recognized the person standing a distance away from her. “Oh my… Taeng?!” she shouted and ran ahead when she saw the person turn her head and smile at her.

“Hey.” Taeyeon laughed when Sunny tackled her with a hug.

“When did you come back?”

“Just a few days ago.”

Sunny let go and observed her friend from head to toe. “You look well.”

“Thanks. So do you.” Taeyeon noticed the young man approaching them. “Boyfriend?”

“Um… fiancé,” said Sunny as her cheeks turned pink.

“Oh? Wow. Congratulations,” Taeyeon sincerely said. She smiled politely when Sunny introduced her to the man.

“Have you talked to Fany?” asked Sunny.

Taeyeon shook her head. “How is she doing?”

“She’s okay. She was upset that you left her just like that.”

“I wrote her a goodbye letter.”

“But you never said goodbye directly, properly,” said Sunny. “She blamed herself.”

“What? Why?”

“She said she’d hurt you too much and thus drove you away.”

“You know it’s not like that.”

“Yeah, I know but she doesn’t.” Sunny patted her friend’s arm. “Talk to her, Taeng. She’s waiting.”

—-

Taeyeon cleared her throat as she awkwardly approached the woman sitting alone on the bench, facing the water. She took a seat next to her but said nothing.

The two sat in silence for a few minutes before Tiffany decided to speak.

“Sunny told me you came back nearly a month ago.”

“Um…”

“What took you so long to contact me?” Tiffany turned her head. “Do you hate me?”

“What? Of course not!” Taeyeon saw the sad look in Tiffany’s eyes and felt guilty. “I don’t hate you. I can’t even if I wanted to.”

“Then why did you leave like that? Without even saying goodbye.”

“I wrote you that letter, didn’t I?”

“That’s not how you say goodbye to someone you called your best friend.”

“I’m sorry. It’s just… I needed a break, a change of scenery while I try to sort things out. Especially regarding you.”

Tiffany looked away, back to staring at the water. “I missed you,” she said.

“I missed you too.”

“I’m sorry for everything. I’m sorry I hurt you.”

“Hey, it’s not your fault.” Taeyeon reached out, holding Tiffany’s hand.

“You should’ve told me.”

“I was afraid I’d lose you.”

“That will never happen. Your lack of faith in me is really disappointing, Taetae.” Tiffany used that childhood nickname on purpose.

“Sorry. I was genuinely confused and afraid.”

“How about now? Have you sorted things out?”

Taeyeon nodded. “I have.”

Tiffany turned her head. “What happens now then?”

Taeyeon lifted her head, looked Tiffany in the eyes and squeezed her hand apologetically. “I… I met someone. I’m getting married, Fany.”